She was sitting next to me. I have been trying to say this to her for the past 1 year but I was not able to do so... Call it shy or fear, there are no words to write whatever I have felt for that... I decided this night I am going to open my mouth and gonna say those three words I Love you... Every second I reckon myself “ok buddy let this be ur golden moment, say it”... Seconds passed by … minutes passed by... Hours went together …. She was still sitting next to me dreaming... I felt like I am sitting in a crocodile mouth... I urged myself to say it … I almost opened my mouth, and then I didn’t … I fell silent… finally I decided its after all a girl who I knew for months and why should I struggle to say those words and that too which is going to be a happy moment after that .. So I though no more opinions or thoughts... I called her. Looked in her eyes and at last I made it ……

My father was watching the idiot box and was enjoying the drama and I stood back pressing my fathers shoulder unable to put my thoughts and emotions in words. I was afraid what he is going to say if I let it open tonight… But anyhow I have to tell it to him one night.. I said to myself ok now you have to say it. I opened my mouth to say it and then I asked do u need water? My father said no and started watching the serial again; he changed channels while I was standing beside him unable to open my mouth, though amidst a chill whether outside and fan revolving in top speed, I was able to feel the sweat fall through my body… I could feel my heart beating faster and there was this song “ Kicku Erudhu song “ playing in SCV and I thought I am going to use the same technique what I did 2 years before to her. No thought no opinions no delay… just let it go... And at last I made it

Two instances in my life till date where I found it really to hard to say what I was feeling and that too 2 persons whom I know so much and very close… It happens